Extremely tired but not sleepy right now so I decided to blog about my experience hanging out with my sister's bunch of friends.

It might not be a big deal to you but it is to me because I'm often against the idea of going out togther with my friend's friend/family member etc cos I'm so anti social that I'd most prolly freaked out when I have to talk to some stranger, let my persona take over but yet not over doing it cos' it is so not me.

Well, we first agreed to go to a newly launched club in town area -___-;; highly suspicious yea??
My sister was nagging at me non stop cos' I stay rooted on the chair surfing the net before we were about to leave. Seem like her worries are unnecessary because her friends arrived an hour later -__-;;
I thought it was just one of them, but 3 turned up.

Headed over to their friend's chalet party and I see more of their friends. Like 70 ++ people smoking, running around, grilling and eating food. Whoa. Hate that scene man. Smoke all around, making me smell like some kinda roasted martian (only that I smell better cos' Martians naturally smell better than Earthlings, js)
I was a lil shy to talk at first, and others were making the same comment about 'your sister is very quiet'. Idk why I act all shy and dainty when I hang around with strangers, my persona I guess..
My sister said something like : "Oh she isn't. She is extremely talkative and noisy. She speaks to me in an indian and hongkie accent"
Her friend also said that I speak like a korean when I'm speaking chinese. Korean accent mandarin??? He continue to say that I look like a korean too :D which made me kinda happy cos' he doesn't know that I'm nuts about them.
He made some comparisons and asked my sister why she aint fluent as me as we are sisters. I helped her replied btw, reason being, she is majoring in interior design and her classmates were all chinese speaking , there is no way she can practise speaking english in that environment. Furthermore, she doesn't need to do much reports, all her assignments were designing and hands on practical work. Besides, whenever she has a report or whatever slideshows to do, she will hand the work to me. Very convenient yea, and I never once turn down because I enjoy doing others' assignments other than mine.



Went to the convience store to buy some soft drinks and ice for the mixers later on. Realized that her friend is damn fickle minded and indecisive. No one bothers to fork in because that dude is rich. No one bothers to carry the grocery bag cos' that dude is a guy and guys are supposed to do all the hard work. I find it kinda ridiculous. I mean I even have to explain why I helped him to carry the grocery bags. I mean the logic is simple, the person is busy keeping his money, there's a long queue behind us and the least I could do is just to simply carry the bags so that we could save everyone some time and space. To hell with those old fashioned thinkings about guys having to carry all the heavy stuffs. It's a nice gesture I know, but I'm not weak. I'm fit enough to carry 25 lbs of grocery bags.


(why am I ranting right now?? Feeling kinda annoyed by now)

The reason why I'm hella pissed off is because I hate how money grubbing girls treat rich guys.
They are always flirting with them, liking them for their money instead of looks (fyi, looks are the 1st attraction when you meet a guy), wanting them to buy them expensive stuffs, try every means to make them pay, try every lil single way to take advantage of them, treat them like a slave but solve the problem by sweet talking or flirting with them. Poor guys yea.
That dude is rich, he has alot of girls (pests) swooning up to him, flirting and courting him because he is rich. All for the motherfucking stinkass money. Are they cheap or what??
I mean, some guys might be rich but they are totally an arrogant jerk, some might look like crap, some has no manners at all. In this case, the guy look like crap but has a way with his friends. His ex girlfriends hooked up with him, not the other way round. JUST BECAUSE HE IS RICH. cheap whores. I'd rather date someone who is finanically stable, has good manners and live in an average apartment. Financially stable means the ability to provide for my child and my expenses, especially my child's education and all the bills. My expenses doesn't include high end branded bags, spa, massage , shitloads of treatments etc. That money, I can earn it myself. One simple principle that I stick to is, never take advantage of guys and never let them to the same to you. If you want the money, earn it yourself. I don't see why I should rely on a guy when I can have the capability to do it myself. Going on dutch with a male friend is fine with me, and carrying my own shopping bags while shopping with a male friend is fine with me. His kind offer to help you without any ulterior motive is a nice gesture thou.

Random rants that matters (to me)

1) Black Queen is officially my favorite korean dance group.

2) My sis can be annoying at times, especially when she plans a last min spontaneous event (clubbing) at least once every week and calls me early in the morning for the past few days.

3) Listening to 'Hot Issue', 'So Hot', 'I don't care', 'Change' makes me feel confident. That kinda confidence which tells you that you are a big deal.



5) I'm still comtemplating if I should go to the new club with Celine this saturday. Afterall, I'm starting to work on Monday and I don't have any days left to go out.



6) I'm soooo motivated to buy furnitures (WHITE lace curtains, desktop table, desk lamp, arm swivel chair, bookshelves, four poster bed, HUGE LONG mirror), white memory pillow (for my aching neck), white quilt, bedsheets etc.

7) Can't wait to refurnish my whole room, then buy a treadmill, Ipod loud speaker so that I can run while pumping up the loud music.


8) Wished that I can install a LED 3D tv on my wall but I think that is possibly impossible.

9) My love for South KR grow stronger each day. I'm a step closer to being insanely obsessed with this awesome country. The language, food, culture, people, place etc. I'd appreciate it if anyone lemme know where I can buy the Korean Flag.


10) I got a bad feeling about this student raping the tutor when she is all alone in his apartment. I might be paranoid and judgemental but he is srsly highly suspicious. 46 yo man.. requesting a FEMALE private tutor, wanting to meet up with her before the lessons. Please tell me that I'm nuts. I srsly don't want the police to call me up and ask if I'm an accomplice -___-;;


11) I've written a whole list of food to avoid eating and food suggestion for all meals. All the food stated in the list are healthy, the right amount of serving, low GI. I think it helps a tiny weeny bit because I'm more determined to eat healthy and it serves as a gentle reminder that I should control my appetite. I'm referring to the list to check if my pick is a good choice or not (even thou I know clearly if it's or not), I just need to remind and control myself. And I refer to the list so that I have an idea what to pick up during grocery shopping,


12) Work is starting on Monday. I can't wait. I know that it will be challenging having shitload of things to do and I can't even skive for a single sec. It is great that way since the past few jobs were far too bimbotic and boring for me. Another bonus is that I can expose myself to other alternatives, working in the hospital can help me to practise my patience and make me more or less humane.

S : "Hullo"

Me : "Hullo"

S : "What are you doing?"

Me : "Watching korean guys singing. You?"

S : "Watching tv."

*long pause*

Me : "Hullo. what are you doing?"

S : "Watching tv"

*pregant pause*

Me : "Hullo. Do you remember that you are talking to me?"

S : "...."

Me : "Wassup? why did u call me??"

S : "Oh, I'm eating your kimchi right now, so I call u"

Me : "... Oh okay.."

S : "Okay. Bye"

Me : "Bye."



p/s: thanks for reading this world's lamest conversation ever. My sis has this habit of calling me just to say Hi and Bye to me. -____________-;;;;

바보처럼 - 버블시스터즈

아끼던 옷을 고르고 난 화장을 하죠
한참을 거울 앞에 앉아서
늘 하지 않아 서툰 내 손이
입술을 그리며 조금은 떨리고 있죠

아무리 유난스레 서둘러 준비하려 해봐도
눈물이 흘러 내 얼굴을 자꾸 망쳐놓죠

그대와 헤어지러 가는 날인데
난 겨우 이것밖엔 할 수가 없죠 바보처럼
마지막 그대에게 가장 예쁜 내 모습으로
기억되기를 바랄뿐이죠 그대 떠나도

지킬 자신도 없는데 또 다짐을 하죠
웃으며 그대 보내주기를
이별의 말에 눈물이 흘러
화장이 번지면 그대가 싫어할까봐

아무리 이별 앞에 내 맘을 추스르려 해봐도
아직 남겨진 내 사랑이 가만두질 않죠

그대와 헤어지러 가는 날인데
난 겨우 이것밖엔 할 수가 없죠 바보처럼
마지막 그대에게 가장 예쁜 내 모습으로
기억되기를 바랄뿐이죠 그대 떠나도

날 위한 그대사랑 어느새 다 써버렸음을
나도 알고 있는데

그대와 헤어지고 돌아가는 길
결국 내 얼굴은 다 번져버렸죠 바보처럼
하지만 뒤돌아선 그댈 보는 그 순간까지
눈물 꼭 참고 편히 보낸건 참 잘한거겠죠

i have a problem with some humans who need someone in their life
idk. i think it shows nothing but vunerability and weakness.
They always think that they are crazily in love with someone when they are attached and when they broke up, they are back to searching another log to cling on to.

I knew it instantly when I first saw him.
Someone who is gonna walk into my life, leave some footprints, some memories that can never be erased.
Tell me, please assure me that this crazy obsession will not drive me crazy.
Let me know that a feeling that last up to 5 years wouldn't last for eternity.
Please wake me up to senses and tell me that this is anything but Love.

보고싶다 - 김범수

아무리 기다려도 난 못가
바보처럼 울고 있는 너의 곁에
상처만 주는 나를 왜 모르고 기다리니
떠나가란말야
보고싶다 보고싶다
이런 내가 미워 질만큼
울고 싶다 내게무릎 끓고
모두 없던 일이 될수있다면

미칠듯 사랑했던 기억이 추억들이
너를 찾고있지만
더이상 사랑이란 변명에
너를 가둘수 없어

이러면 안되지만 죽을 만큼 보고 싶다

보고 싶다 보고 싶다
이런내가 미워질 만큼믿고 싶다
옳은 길이라고
너를 위해 떠나야만 한다고

미칠듯 사랑했던 기억이 추억들이
너를 찾고 있지만
더이상 사랑이란 변명에
너를 가둘수 없어
이러면 안되지만
죽을 만큼 보고싶다
죽을 만큼 잊고싶다