Between the lines

"I would say I was depressed.
But you know, we've all been there.
This is about loving someone who doesn't love back.
And, I know, it sucks right.."


I know that feeling.
When your world revolves around him and nothing else mattered except him.
But your existence meant merely nothing in his life at all.

When you try so hard to get his attention but he never notices you because he was too busy trying to get into her world.

There could only be one beautiful lady among the other gorgeous ones and that person could never be you.

When you can do nothing but stand aside looking at him and thought how nice it would be if he likes you back.

When others comment that 'You guys look compatible' but you can only just shrug and reply 'We're just friends.'

When what he has done for you has long exceeded the line and you guys were beyond friends which make you feel as though you were a friend with benefit except that you have gained no benefits at all.

When you try to pretend that you were fine and all so happy when you were actually slowly dying inside.

When 'heart wrenched' is an understatement that has barely any value to describe your current condition.

When you forgive something which has never been a sin before.

When you try so hard to walk off and forget every lil single details but you find yourself going back, replaying things that once happened before and will never happen again.

When you seek solace by rewinding those memories in hope that it will keep you warm through the night.

When you step into this vicious cycle and will be trapped in it for years.

I've found my way out after 5 years and I never once looked back.
You made me look back again.